weee!

Thanks Steve! I am pretty excited about this whole Blog thing.. an online Journal I suppose.
I am at my parents house tonight. It is most def weird being here. My good friends remember when I thought that being cool with my mom would never happen again. We are cool again. We are best friends again. I know that the root of 99% of our fights came from her just wanting the best for me and me have complete disregard for that. It is pretty funny how a parent can tell you something over and over your entire life and you never register it. and it isnt until you really sit down one day and go.. "damn.. I am messing up. major." that you get it all together. (sorry.. once again I must reiterate that my thoughts can be pretty disconnected.) My life has slowly become less of a drunken struggle and more of an accomplishing routine. I know there are a few of my friends out there, *cough, steve, cough*, who have heard me rant about this on many occasion.. but it is kind of a rewarding feeling. I wouldnt go as far as to say that I was an alcoholic.. I just had my phase. I got it out. I put my mom through hell. I put myself and my friends through hell. I dropped off the grid. But it was a grid that needed to be disposed of. Here I am. and I am ok.

love you.